Ah, a couple of days off can do wonders. I made a decision. And I didn't even know I made it until someone asked me if I was still feeling blue about writing. Funny thing is, even as craptastic as my writing has been, I'm not feeling all that blue. Explaining that to her made me realize something. As long as I'm not angsting over whether my stuff is going to get published I'm better off. I'd almost dare to say I'm fine. :waits for lightning to strike:
So, understanding that, I'm taking a sabbatical from trying to get an agent, sell my stuff, get published, etc. I'm just going to focus on my writing and see how things go from there. I'm going to try to go back to the beginning when I wrote stories because I loved to write them. I'd like to go back to the time when I could write without constantly worrying about every little frickin' pronoun, adverb, adjective, dialogue tag, etc. but I'd have to totally retrain my brain and wipe out 7 years of writing advice.
Then again, maybe I need to do that. I don't know if I can. I just know I miss sitting down to write without the constant voices in the back of my head doubting every syllable I type. I think after 7 years of advice, I have too many people in my head. (And it was already crowded enough in there, thank you very much.)
Wish me luck as I venture forth into the brave old kingdom.