I saw a funny meme on FB recently that said something to the effect of 'I saw an old gal the other day and then realized we graduated together'. Which got me to thinking about the people I went to school with. Which lead me to search FB for my alma mater. I found a group devoted to alumni of the school. It has like 1100+ members, so it covers way more years than mine. (We graduated like 140 people in 1988.)
So, I started to scroll through the list of members. Some names I knew. Some names merely sounded familiar. (All of my siblings graduated from the same school, so some of those familiar names were their classmates and not mine.)
I found one of my circle of friends in there. The five of us were tight - Margaret, Maria, Janine, Ann, and I. Back then. Then we all graduated and went our separate ways, and didn't keep in touch. I saw her at our 10th class reunion, and while it was fun to hang out and catch up and reminisce, we had nothing in common anymore. We probably have less in common now. I mean, #10 was 18 years ago.
She looks the same. I mean, older obviously, but pretty much the same Maria I knew in high school.
I found another of my once-upon-a-time friends on there. I'd known this gal from the age of like 3 because her mother and my mother were friends. We were super tight from like 3 until around 8. Then things happened and we drifted. Her photo is two women close together. I don't recognize either of them. We probably have about as much in common as with the other lost friend.
I'm still looking for my best friend, Mags. I haven't seen her since the summer before I went away to college. The letters just stopped. The phone calls just stopped. I found out later that she'd stopped by home and spoken with my mother. She was very concerned about the man I was seeing at the time. Which, I guess, is why she stopped talking to me because she didn't want her dislike of him* to come between us... but it did anyway.
I don't know what I'd do if I found her. Would I reach out? Do we have anything left between us but the memories of how much we loved each other? Right now, I don't know what would happen. I'd still like to find her,
though, if only to see if she has had a good life. I want her to have
had a good life. She was my sister from another mister. We're both totally different people than we were then. Well, I am. I assume she's changed, too.
You really can never go back. Sure, it's interesting to look back, but trying to go back? Ain't gonna be the way you hope it'll be. Slim chance it might be better. Larger chance it will be so much worse.
What about you? Are you still friends with people from high school? College? If there was one person you could find, who would that be?
*She was right, btw. He was an ass. I dumped him at the beginning of my Sophomore year at college. I would've traded him for her in a heartbeat.