Hi. My name is Beth and I'm an internet addict.
I first started by using the gateway drug Bitnet back in 1989. Heh, I was a kid, I was in college... what can I say? In my generation, most kids started their addiction in college anyway. Things like Bitnet weren't readily available anywhere else.
Bitnet was slow. It was ungainly. But man, what a rush! I could sit in the computer lab and send messages to people all the way across the country. I could hang out with my friends and we could talk to other friends who weren't even in the room!
After I left college, though, times got rough. I couldn't afford to feed my habit. I didn't have the scratch to buy a computer, and forget about internet access. (Hell, when I first left college, the 'internet' was still so new not many people could get their hands on it.) I thought I was over it. But like so many other addictions, it was just lying in wait...
Flash forward several years. Circuit City had a sale. I got my first home computer. And then I discovered the new gateway drug to lead me to where I am now:
Those dirty bastards hooked me and hooked me good. I was chatting my days away - forgetting chores, forgetting to eat, ignoring my family. I eventually left AOL and ventured into new and wonderful aspects of my addiction all on my own. Sure, sometimes someone would send me a new and shiny link - but I didn't have to click it. I just couldn't help myself.
To show you how far this has gone, I had internet hooked up in my new house before I had a refrigerator delivered.
This past week, though, it's been hell around here. The 'high speed' internet we were promised has too many other addicts sucking at it. There's not enough to go around. I'm totally jones'n, man. And those ISP bastards put up a sign on the corner - right where the juice comes from to feed my addiction - offering the others in my neighborhood a taste of this ambrosia if they just sign up now. :shudder: More people on my DSL?? There are too many here already. It keeps knocking me off. It runs so slow that I feel like I'm back on dial-up waiting for AOL to WELCOME me. I can't work. I can't play. All I can do is sit here, staring at my modem and waiting for the little light to turn green again so I can get my fix.
I suppose this is just the intervention I need. I did get 2200 words out last night. But I couldn't even check my email between pages like I'm used to. :sniffle:
I'm getting just enough of the drug to keep me from getting the DTs, but it ain't pretty around here. I... I... I even CLEANED the bathroom this morning!
You know life's bad when you're forced to clean the bathrooms.
How about you? What's your story? How long have you been using the internet? Could you quit if you wanted to?