What does this have to do with the price of beans in chili? Well, last week I said I was taking time off to think. And thinking I did do. Much thinking and many thoughts.
You see, I was at a place where I had to decide if I was going to keep writing.
Backing the truck up for a moment... I've been doing this for going on 10 years. I started what would become my first finished book near the end of January 2004. I finished that book in the fall and began
So there I sat at the crevasse of wondering what in the hell I was doing this for if all I ever get is rejections. I've got over a dozen books in various stages of completion - over half of which have gone through the submission process. (I'm not hardy enough to go back and get the exact numbers this morning.)
"Insanity is doing the same things the same way and expecting different results." - Unknown
That quote has been running through my head lately. I thought I was doing things differently. I mean, I've tried every genre I can. I've tried all different types of queries. But whether I was actually doing things differently? :shrug: I don't know. There are other things I could've done - some things I'm not quite sure I'm willing to do, other things I'm not quite sure I have the funds to do, certain things I'm not sure I have the drive to do.
So here I sit. The crevasse is still there. I'm still not sure exactly why the hell I'm doing any of this. But I have decided I will continue to do this.
"Why do you keep hitting yourself in the head with a rock?" "Because when I stop, it feels sooo good." - paraphrased from Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy)
Or rather, it's like shooting yourself in the forehead with a bee-bee gun. It's not productive, but after a while, you get used to the pain.
I don't know what 2014 will bring - insanity, hard work and success, or a constant barrage of bee-bees. For now, though, I'm still here and I'm still writing. I guess that's a good thing. Time will tell.
As for the blogs? I will continue to post here and at Killer Chicks on a regular basis. The Guide will be posted to when and if there's something pertinent to put there rather than here. A Pound of B.S. will probably sit there, marking a space for when and if I ever get published.