I wanted to write. Hell, I'm way behind on my NaNo words, and even if I forget that, I am writing a book. If NaNo didn't exist, I'd still want to be working toward THE END. I even tried to tell myself to forget about NaNoWriMo and just get the words out. Nada. I told myself to forget how behind I was - you know, to take the pressure off. Zilch.
I did think about writing. You don't want to know what I was thinking. I must be at that point - you know the one. The self-doubt point. :shrug: I've been here so many times they ought to name a street after me.
Hubs is being supportive by telling me I don't need to worry about this. That I don't need to hold myself to some arbitrary deadline. I should just relax and let the words come when they will. I understand. He deals with deadlines and pressures in his day job, and he'd do anything to take that off my shoulders. I get it.
I still feel like a slug. Here I am without any outside deadlines or pressures. I have no agent. I have no contracts. (Which is pressure enough, if you ask me.) No one cares if I ever finish another book. I could chuck the whole idea and the world wouldn't be the wiser - well, except for the 59 people who stop by here on a regular basis. :waves:
* that picture is of a beer trap (aka slug pub) for ridding yourself of the pesky slugs in your garden. They love beer. They drink, they drown, they die. :shudder: Thank goodness I'm not really a slug.
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We all go through slumps! I've been a slug for the past couple of months when it comes to writing....
ReplyDeleteWe've tried that beer trap thing before too! It's totally gross but works! Those little alcoholics!
I so hear you, B.E.! The whole 'chucking it' thing - and the 'no deadline' thing - and especially the 'no one cares' thing.
ReplyDeleteAnd because of that, I have no words of wisdom. None! Actually, I do, but they don't work on me, so I doubt if they'll work on you.
Do know, however, that I'm cheering for you from my little corner of the universe! And I know how much you love to write, so you'll write :)
Give yourself a hug and don't beat yourself up overly much.
I need to tell that to myself too. But the couch just looks sooo inviting.
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Oh, I felt like that this weekend too! You're not alone in the whole slug thing. Slugs unite!
ReplyDeleteI've never heard about the beer trick with slugs! Funny.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about being a slug for the day. The way I see it, your brain needed a rest and you took it. Maybe you even felt refreshed and ready to type a bazillion words. No worries!
It's okay to be a slug. I'm either a slug or I'm in full-blown panic mode with no in between... slug is better :)
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